HIII! Long Time No See

hai hai hai! Long time no see ya kitaa hwhw ;* apa kabar semuanya? gue baiiiiik. hehe udah lama bgtnih gak blogging, sibuk bgt braw gue sekarang *ea haha tp emg benersih gue sibuuuuk bener dah. full schedule gitu, ya dari mulai aktifitas sekolah, basket, berenang, eskul, dan aktifitas terbaru gue niiih fitness, yaak fitness baru aja kemaren gue daftar anggota tmptnya di celebrity fitness mhehe udh tau kan semua itu tempat bagus bgt alat22nya lengkap-lengkap gt yaa, gue daftar sama bokap&nyokap gue. awalnyasih gakdibolehin gitu yaa, tapi karena gue ngerengek mulu kek vespa butut jadi yaa dibolehin gitude hahahahaha oya rencannya sohib gue juga mau ikut gitude jadi yaa lumayan kalo plg mlm ada yg nemenin gitukan ;;) ohiya all about my lovelife nih, udah gatel bgt dari dulu22 pengen cerita tentang ini tapi yaa baru ada waktu sekarang hehehe B-) buat skrg sih status gue 'a princess without a prince' HEHEHE tau kan mksdnya apa ;;) ya kalo gaktau caritau dulu dehya. jadi skrg ini gue cuma ngeceng22 gitu, sempet sih kmrn22 gue deket sama bbrp orang cuma ya gakcocok aja gituya jadi masih jadi a princess without a prince deh sampe sekarang :__D dan sempet juga kemaren22 itu gakngeceng sama siapa22 gitu, sekitar 2blnan lah kayak gitu dan itu rasanya supeeeer absurd! pertama 2bln itu gue gakpernah rasain yg namanya galau, jadi buat22 lo semua yg gakpgn galau mending gakusah ngeceng deh apalagi punya cowo/e, trs ke dua itu emg ngerasa lonely gituu, gakada yg ngebbm lah atau engga yg ngingetin mkn gitu hahaha udah gendut juga gue-_- pokoknya serba absurd and I can't describe    that feelin. lama lama lamaaaa gue cari22 cowo trnyata sekarang gue ngeceng lagiiiiii AaAaAa sekarang bisa rasain gimana rasanya galau haha ya cuma ttp ajasih engga ada yg perhatian. tptp daripada gakngeceng sama sekali itu lebih parah ternyata brawww. jadi ya gitudeh walaupun cuma gue&sohib gue doang yg tau kalo gue ngeceng dia, tapi udah seneeeng bgt :'D dia itu berbehel gitudeh, gembul, putih, agak tinggi, pokoknya ganteng unyu gituu hahaha ganteng bgt pokoknya, cuma ya itu dia namanya juga cinta terpendam *ea jadi cuma bisa liat dia doang, ohya kita blm pernah bicara sama sekali. walaupun itu chat atau apapun itu tuh belum pernah sekalipun hhhh tp yaudah gpp sih. masih bisa sadar tampang juga gue hehehe ya pokoknya udh deh cukup gue aja yg tau :') eh tapi kayaknya gak juga, kalo dari kelakuan dia sih kayakn ya dia udh tau kalo gue ada feel sama dia. dan dia bertindak seolah22 gaknerima gue duluan, jauhin gitu hehehe tapi yaudah deh gpp :') oke yaa move topic ajadeh kayaknya sekarang drpd dengerin lovelife gue yg ngenes bgt itu ya hehehehe ohya skrg itu minggu22nya capek, stress beraat. karena 2minggu inituh kita bakal ketemu sama soal22 monstah, yaps soal22 uts. minggu ini adalah uprak/uts praktek dan minggu depan itulooh hhhh soal22 yg monstah bakal ketemu sama guweh :/ pokoknya do'ain gue lancar22 yaa, biar dpt nilai bgs lebih bgs drpd kemaren22 amiiiin. oke see you later guys.


With love, nadys.

'Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry, & just bcause she comes off strong, doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong'. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I'm dying. I'm not speaking. I'm not as strong as should I be. It's killing me so damn much. Not only me, but my friends too. 

I'm sorry I constantly want talk to you. I'm sorry when you take long to reply, I get sad. I'm sorry if I said things that might piss you off. I'm sorry if I come off as annoying. I'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me as much I wanna talk to you. I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often. I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don;t really care. I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy, but it's just me missing you.

I tought I forgot him already. I was so stupid to think of that-_- I'm already move the fuck on just now. Bye

I miss calling you mine.

No matter how hard I pretend, I still miss you. I miss waking up to your texts. And waiting for your goodnight message. I miss your goofy jokes and your warm laughter. I miss having you at the end of a hard day. And talking to you and sharing every little thing. I miss your voice, your smile, that twinkle in your eyes. I miss fighting with you and then cuddling up to you. But most of all, I miss calling you mine.

No title.

When you love someone, someone you love. When they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go trough. And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but the you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart, for the hundredth time. And you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know, you shouldn't. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. They stole your happiness. But yet, You still want them, and only them. Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. And even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. On top of that, you're terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. But it's not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely  broken. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

I really wish I could say this to him.

When we broke up, I tried to move on. I tried asking other guys out, but I found every time I started hanging around with them, they weren't what I thought. I guess I set them up to where they were equal with you, yet they where nowhere close. And I miss you. I still love you, I may find it really hard to move on now but in time I will. I promise.