Y:'(

I look at him and I know that he doesn’t love me in the way that he once did before. He’ll never love me like that again. Everything is tainted now; I know this for a fact. Nonetheless, my legs refuse to walk away and my heart refuses to let him go. It’s as if I’d rather suffer through the heartache than lose him altogether. And I don’t know which is sadder, me - the girl who is not strong enough to leave, or witnessing a love that was once so strong, slowly fading away into nothing.

What happened with me in this year?

Hey!

I think 2013 is the hardest year ever. Di tahun ini gue harus melewati banyak ujian, dari mulai ujian sekolah sampe ujian hidup sekalipun. Haha tumben banget ya gue ngomong serius gini? Iya, abis lagi gak mood buat bercanda. Jangan kan bercanda lah, buat tertawa pun masih sangat membutuhkan segumpal dorongan dari dalam hati. Cielah saking seriusnya gue jadi sok putitis gini, ekhem.

Ujian pertama adalah gue harus bergelut dengan buku Sukses UN 2013 yang hampir seluruh isinya gue hapal. Iya, apalagi biologi. Sebenernya ujian ini udah dimulai dari pertengahan tahun lalu. Tapi gue baru merasakan gereget 'seolah-olah tidak ingin dilahirkan kedunia' itu bulan januari tahun ini. Sampai bulan april  lalu, dan voila! Sampailah pada ujian yang ke dua.

Ujian ke dua adalah face the examination.  Tepatnya tanggal, 22 April 2013. I've been fight for the national examination for the rest of my 14th life. And, I did my best ofc! I got 10 point for math, and 9,25 for science. Do not ask about bahasa and english point. Dan, sekarang gue sedang berjalan menuju zona yang mempunyai semboyan 'jadilah dewasa, dan temukan jati dirimu disini' a.k.a SMA.

Ujian masih belum berakhir sampai di sana, gue masih harus berkecimpung di fase-fase yang membingungkan. Choose the best one for this. Fase ini adalah, memilih SMA! But mommy is always said, go to 8. Dan akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk masuk ke sana. Banyak orang bilang 'do what your parent said, itu bakalan jadi berkah' amin.

Uhm, masih ada lagi loh ujiannya. Ini adalah the hardest of the hardest. But i am not going to tell you guys about this. Karena ujian yang ini memang bersifat pribadi. But still, please wish me the best! Berharap gue engga akan down buat kedepannya. Berharap semua bakal selesai dengan secepatnya. Dan, berharap semua bakal lebih baik nantinya. Amin.

Terakhir, i wanna say thankyou for always listening and being there for me, 2R. I do love both of you guys. I am sorry if my story always confusing you. I always seriously feel unsure everytime i tell you both something happened to me. But i am glad that you both are still want to listening to the-suckest-stories-ever. 

Gak terasa banget udah jam segini, tapi gue masih tidur-tiduran di kasur. Hiiiii how jorok i am. Kalo gitu, gue mau menyegarkan diri dulu ya. Happy holiday!

Hippie, nadys.

Monday, June 10.

안뇽!

Lagi-lagi dengan super randomnya i'm feelin so sad. Entahlah apa yang sebenernya gue galauin malem-malem seperti ini. Mungkin terlalu banyak what if  yang akhir-akhir ini selalu menghantui pikiran gue. What if gue gak bisa nyaman di sekolah baru.. What if temen-temennya gak sekompak ini.. Dan to be fuckin honest, what if yang bikin super galau adalah what if gue gak satu sekolah lagi sama Dia, Rere dan Kecoa Bunting.

'Dimana ada pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan'. Quotes ini emang super bener. Tapi please, apa harus secepat ini kah perpisahannya itu? Apalagi gue baru banget ngerasa hidup lagi di dunia. Hm, as i told you before, sekarang gue emang lagi hidup-hidupnya banget tjoy. Tapi masa harus berakhir gitu aja? Please kan gak banget.

The hardest thing to do is  to leave them and especially him. Kalo boleh jujur, perasaan sayang gue udah bertambah 99% buat mereka. Yap, apalagi dia. Entah lah, menurut gue ini perpisahan yang bikin gue bisa pamerin bokong dari pagi sampe pagi lagi depan gedung sate. Engga deng gue becanda. Tapi, emang bener kalo tentang susah untuk meninggalkannya itu. Semoga aja, hal itu terjadi. Hal apa? Hal yang bisa bikin gue lega tentang dia. Amin.

Malem ini super duper lagi berantakan banget. Karena tadi baru nganter Rere pulang, harus melewati jalan yang gelaaaap banget. Satu kata aja buat dia, tega. Ohya, tadi sore ada acara gladiresik untuk graduation besok loh!! Yeay!! Akhirnya gue lulus juga dari sekolah yang paling gue banggakan ini. I mean, dibanggakan untuk direndahkan diagung-agungkan. Okey, about this arvo. Gue sempet ngerasa seneng dan kesel dicampur sedih tadi. Pertama, gue seneng karena ada yang baru pamer rambut barunya. His hair cut is little bit messy, but still fine. Kedua, kesel karena ada yang terus-terusan menyindir secara halus tentang kita. I mean me and him. Siapa lagi sih kalo bukan... ekhem, her. Okay, but i'm not gonna talk about her nao. I'll just accept and forget it. Dan yang ke tiga, tadi gue anter Rere pulang tapi dengan melewati jalan yang gelaaaap banget. Gini-gini gue masih cewek kali, Re. Satu kata aja buat dia, tega.

Sip! Lagi-lagi gue merasa sangat ngantuk. Rasanya seperti melayang-layang di awan. Kalo gitu, gue tidur ya. Selamat malam.


Hugs, nadys.

I never even thought about this day, June 3♡

Dear Regina & R,
thanks a lot for today, the cake, the surprise, and even the awkwardness♡

Lagi-lagi gue ingin bercerita tentang hari ini. Iya, bercerita tentang 3 juni yang sangat-sangat-sangat engga pernah terbayangkan sebelumnya. Jangankan terbayang, terpikirpun engga. Guess what? gue dapet surprise yang memang sangat wow. And I cannot even describe what I feel nao. A lot of laugh, love, and of course awkwardness this day.

Berhubung kemarin itu gue udah resmi menjadi anak berumur 15 tahun dan berhubung temen gue dengan tumbennya bertanya bisa kah gue menemaninya jalan, akhirnya terjadilah tragedi hari ini. Tragedi dimana temen gue yang pada awalnya bilang mau mengajak salah satu teman lamanya yang berubah menjadi si manusia itu. Iya, maksudnya R. Yang pada awalnya gue berniat nonton Evil Dead berubah pula menjadi Epic. Dan yang pada awalnya gue berniat mencari taxi setelah mengantar Regina sendiri menjadi.. Ah sudahlah. Ini bukan untuk bahan pergunjingan para anjing wanita yang suka bergunjing(?) Pokoknya, What a 360' changed day!?!?!

Eh tapi ngomong-ngomong tentang Evil Dead, ada yang bilang katanya itu film horror terseram 2013? tapi kalo ternyata itu cuma meninggalkan derping yang hinggap untuk berhibernasi dan mencari mangsa di waktu panas gue bakal salto di depan studio bioskop. Engga deng!!! Sorry kalo post ini emang sedikit ngaco isinya, karena si kantuk terus menggerogoti mata sedari tadi.

Uhm, pokoknya sekarang gue udah enggak punya cukup tenaga untuk stay awake, apalagi untuk menulis semua kejadian di 3 juni ini. Intinya, terimakasih sekali untuk hari ini, Regina & R. I love both of you guise♡ but i love R most, no jk. Selamat malam!

Xoxo, nadys.

2 June, Again.

Hai!

Tanpa basa basi bilang ini adalah post baru gue, gue cuma mau bilang hari ini sangat campur aduk. Emang, pada dasarnya hari ini adalah hari jadi gue. Yeay! Tambah dewasa lah anak perempuan seperempat lelaki ini.. Loh kok? uhm hanya kebanyakan teman menganggap gue seperti itu. Okay, tapi there's no something special today. 

Hari kemarin setelah pemberitahuan kelulusan gue rasanya sangat ingin loncat ke jupiter dan gak balik lagi. Oke gue ngayal. Eh, ngomong-ngomong soal jupiter, sebenernya dia punya berapa satelit sih? katanya 67 lebih, ada yang bilang 63 terus barusan gue googling emang cuma 67 sih... Oh 67, gak penting. Balik soal pengumuman, gue berhasil dapet 36,85. Gue ngerasa bersyukur banget sama Allah. Apalagi dan lagi-lagi gue berhasil mempertahankan nilai 10 di matematika sejak UN SD 3 tahun lalu. Ibu terlihat sangat bangga dan itu membuat supucuk kebahagian timbul dalam diri gue. Iya, cuma sepucuk. Karena kalo setangkai, Ibu harus melakukan salto sambil kayang di tambah push up dan dribbling hahaha jokes only. Pokoknya gue bahagia.

Kalo udah pernah baca, 2 post terakhir itu menyangkut tentang sesosok cielah sesosok hahaha seorang anak manusia iyalah dikata anak kodok yang mau gue ceritain sekarang ini. Manusia itu adalah.. uhm kayaknya gak perlu sebut nama ya, tapi oke gue pake inisialnya aja, R. Iya, R. Yang kalo kata orang pernah bilang sih "..udah lah, Nad. He's not even worth it. Dia itu gak mungkin sama lo" BYAR! BOOM! KRETEK! NYESS! Deep ya, rasanya ingin loncat lagi dari jupiter tadi, transit dulu di mars, abis itu landing di bumi. Eits tapi itu dulu tjoy dulu~~~

Sekarang, hari ini. Oke dari sekarang gue cuma mau cerita hari ini. Enggan mengingat yang dulu karena dulu itu ya..... dulu. Sip! Hari ini, yang pertama kasih ucapan adalah Oi. Anak perempuan imut cimit yang awalnya gue kira everything is fine with her yang ternyata memang fine fine saja. Tunggu, sebelum gue melanjutkan ada yang berpikiran buat nanya "Cimit itu apa ya?". Cimit itu sebenernya gue juga tidak tahu menahu tentang arti dari kata itu jadi sudah lah biarkan otak ku membuat lebih banyak kata-kata alien seperti halnya si cimit dan si sumfret.

Hari ini, uhm ada apa ya? Oh! Gue resmi bertambah tua dewasa. 15 tahun sudah hidup di bumi tercinta yang berada diantara planet venus dan mars yang terlingkupi oleh galaksi bima sakti. Kenapa gue mendadak jadi astronomis gini sih daritadi!? Oke, jadi kalo ada yang mau kirim kado bisa langsung aja ke alamat di bawah ini. Satu kado, satu piring cantik. Sip itu mirip iklan sunlight:-(. Terima kasih untuk ucapan dan do'anya Ibu, Ayah dan teman-teman semua. May God bless you always. Tons of love for you guys!♡

Eh kan mau membicarakan R tadi ya.. Iya deh. Jadi sekarang we are in a relationship flirtationship. Iya gak ya.. Iya aja deh. Eh tapi gak tau deh, tanya dia aja. Iya dia, R maksudnya. And to be honest, gue sendiri pun gak tau harus berkomentar apa tentang status gue dengan si makhluk satu ini. Tapi disisi lain gue enggan dan memang i'm not gonna ask him as long as we still like this. I mean, gue gak mau keliatan egois dengan perasaan gue sendiri sebenernya. Tapi gue cuma terlalu takut. Iya, takut kalo pada kenyataannya cuma i fall too hard. But i hope no, lah.

Untuk sekarang, gue mau kita kaya gini aja. Tetep saling support dan care satu sama lain. Walaupun kalo di ibaratkan hubungan kita itu kaya kunang-kunang. Yang bisa keliatan di tempat gelap aja, jsyk underground. Dan kadang bikin gue sedikit larut bersama kebingungan tentang bagaimana cara berlaku dan memperlakukan makhluk ini. Kalo kata gue sendiri sih "..hehe masuk friendzone dia kayanya" NGENG! CEKIIT! JLEB! 

Tapi buat kedepannya, it's up to you us. Kalo memang yes we're worth to do it, ya kenapa enggak? toh mungkin R sendiri tau kalo I do love him. Tapi kalo memang gue dan R ini seterusnya gini, entah apa yang harus gue bilang. Hehehe, kok jadi melow gini? stop ah kan sekarang ini ya hari ini. Bukan besok atau kedepannya. Yeay! Do'akan saja yang terbaik! Semoga gue bisa menempuh hidup baru di SMA 8 nanti. Loh kok!? Tapi aminin aja ya, please? hahaha.

By the way gue ada satu quotes yang memang nyes sekali untuk kita, ups maksudnya untuk gue sama lo sendiri aja deh.

"SOME PEOPLE ARE MEANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. BUT NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER"

Waktu sudah menunjukan pukul 22:00, sangat terasa sekali pegal dipunggung sudah mengelitiki untuk membuat dia berposisi lurus terlentang. "Iya gung, gue tau dah bentar ya!" tuh kan tadi sampe ngobrol gitu sama si punggung. Jadi, sekian dan terimakasih.



Love, nadys.

Because, I love you - Nadya

I'm  waitin' in the dark
I'm listening but there's no sound
You treat me like another stranger
You'll never know what it feels like

*I didn't know how to talk to you
 I didn't know how to start
 I know I'm so far from you

Reff; I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize
        Seemed impossible but I was fallen by you
        I'm afraid to ask but I need to know
        It's okay even if I get hurt

I'm standing here but you don't see me
All I think about is how to make you think of me
Baby, you've made me being out of control


*I didn't know how to talk to you
 I didn't know how to start
 I know I'm so far from you


Reff; I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize
        Seemed impossible but I was fallen by you
        I'm afraid to ask but I need to know
        It's okay even if I get hurt

Baby, Have you ever see me?
Have you ever feel this way?


Reff; I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize
        Seemed impossible but I was fallen by you
        I'm afraid to ask but I need to know
        It's okay because I love you

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That were created by me. hmm idk, I just so obsessed with R until I made a song about him. Tomorrow, I'll bring this lyrics to my funny teacher. Mr.Delli hihihihi hope he would make an instrumental for this song. LOL

Thursday, november 17th 2011. 21.00pm.
for you, R!<3 xoxo

HIII! Long Time No See

hai hai hai! Long time no see ya kitaa hwhw ;* apa kabar semuanya? gue baiiiiik. hehe udah lama bgtnih gak blogging, sibuk bgt braw gue sekarang *ea haha tp emg benersih gue sibuuuuk bener dah. full schedule gitu, ya dari mulai aktifitas sekolah, basket, berenang, eskul, dan aktifitas terbaru gue niiih fitness, yaak fitness baru aja kemaren gue daftar anggota tmptnya di celebrity fitness mhehe udh tau kan semua itu tempat bagus bgt alat22nya lengkap-lengkap gt yaa, gue daftar sama bokap&nyokap gue. awalnyasih gakdibolehin gitu yaa, tapi karena gue ngerengek mulu kek vespa butut jadi yaa dibolehin gitude hahahahaha oya rencannya sohib gue juga mau ikut gitude jadi yaa lumayan kalo plg mlm ada yg nemenin gitukan ;;) ohiya all about my lovelife nih, udah gatel bgt dari dulu22 pengen cerita tentang ini tapi yaa baru ada waktu sekarang hehehe B-) buat skrg sih status gue 'a princess without a prince' HEHEHE tau kan mksdnya apa ;;) ya kalo gaktau caritau dulu dehya. jadi skrg ini gue cuma ngeceng22 gitu, sempet sih kmrn22 gue deket sama bbrp orang cuma ya gakcocok aja gituya jadi masih jadi a princess without a prince deh sampe sekarang :__D dan sempet juga kemaren22 itu gakngeceng sama siapa22 gitu, sekitar 2blnan lah kayak gitu dan itu rasanya supeeeer absurd! pertama 2bln itu gue gakpernah rasain yg namanya galau, jadi buat22 lo semua yg gakpgn galau mending gakusah ngeceng deh apalagi punya cowo/e, trs ke dua itu emg ngerasa lonely gituu, gakada yg ngebbm lah atau engga yg ngingetin mkn gitu hahaha udah gendut juga gue-_- pokoknya serba absurd and I can't describe    that feelin. lama lama lamaaaa gue cari22 cowo trnyata sekarang gue ngeceng lagiiiiii AaAaAa sekarang bisa rasain gimana rasanya galau haha ya cuma ttp ajasih engga ada yg perhatian. tptp daripada gakngeceng sama sekali itu lebih parah ternyata brawww. jadi ya gitudeh walaupun cuma gue&sohib gue doang yg tau kalo gue ngeceng dia, tapi udah seneeeng bgt :'D dia itu berbehel gitudeh, gembul, putih, agak tinggi, pokoknya ganteng unyu gituu hahaha ganteng bgt pokoknya, cuma ya itu dia namanya juga cinta terpendam *ea jadi cuma bisa liat dia doang, ohya kita blm pernah bicara sama sekali. walaupun itu chat atau apapun itu tuh belum pernah sekalipun hhhh tp yaudah gpp sih. masih bisa sadar tampang juga gue hehehe ya pokoknya udh deh cukup gue aja yg tau :') eh tapi kayaknya gak juga, kalo dari kelakuan dia sih kayakn ya dia udh tau kalo gue ada feel sama dia. dan dia bertindak seolah22 gaknerima gue duluan, jauhin gitu hehehe tapi yaudah deh gpp :') oke yaa move topic ajadeh kayaknya sekarang drpd dengerin lovelife gue yg ngenes bgt itu ya hehehehe ohya skrg itu minggu22nya capek, stress beraat. karena 2minggu inituh kita bakal ketemu sama soal22 monstah, yaps soal22 uts. minggu ini adalah uprak/uts praktek dan minggu depan itulooh hhhh soal22 yg monstah bakal ketemu sama guweh :/ pokoknya do'ain gue lancar22 yaa, biar dpt nilai bgs lebih bgs drpd kemaren22 amiiiin. oke see you later guys.


With love, nadys.

'Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry, & just bcause she comes off strong, doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong'. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I'm dying. I'm not speaking. I'm not as strong as should I be. It's killing me so damn much. Not only me, but my friends too. 

I'm sorry I constantly want talk to you. I'm sorry when you take long to reply, I get sad. I'm sorry if I said things that might piss you off. I'm sorry if I come off as annoying. I'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me as much I wanna talk to you. I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often. I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don;t really care. I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy, but it's just me missing you.

I tought I forgot him already. I was so stupid to think of that-_- I'm already move the fuck on just now. Bye

I miss calling you mine.

No matter how hard I pretend, I still miss you. I miss waking up to your texts. And waiting for your goodnight message. I miss your goofy jokes and your warm laughter. I miss having you at the end of a hard day. And talking to you and sharing every little thing. I miss your voice, your smile, that twinkle in your eyes. I miss fighting with you and then cuddling up to you. But most of all, I miss calling you mine.

No title.

When you love someone, someone you love. When they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go trough. And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but the you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart, for the hundredth time. And you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know, you shouldn't. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. They stole your happiness. But yet, You still want them, and only them. Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. And even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. On top of that, you're terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. But it's not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely  broken. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

I really wish I could say this to him.

When we broke up, I tried to move on. I tried asking other guys out, but I found every time I started hanging around with them, they weren't what I thought. I guess I set them up to where they were equal with you, yet they where nowhere close. And I miss you. I still love you, I may find it really hard to move on now but in time I will. I promise.

Talking to myself

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time of your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cause straight up; it's gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He know it's killing you; that's why he will do it. Don't let him get to you because that, well that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways?! Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous. Do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dream. He will realize huge mistake he mad when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows it's killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I'm not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It'll hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It's all gonna hurt. Knowing you're not the girl that's making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing of he hasn't already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his laptop. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next weeks, month from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone, hoping it's him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he's got to much pride. Even he want to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he won't be the first person you call when your upset. He won't be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah! It's gonna hurt; it's gonna hurt a lot. But you know what you gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don't need him in your life. Your gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you go and that you never really needed him anyways.

I kind of miss you, not as I miss you I like you, but I miss talking to you everyday like all everyday, spilling our emotions talking about music and our problems, everything. I just miss when we used talk, now it's like don't know each other anymore and it kind of hurts, even though we weren't anything, is still hurts knowing we've grown apart and it went by so quickly.

This is funny to me..

It's funny how all I used to do was try to forget the bed memories, but now that I've lost you, it's the good ones that hurt the most. It's funny how I literally felt my heart break but to you this was all lies and fake. It's funny when you walk past me and avoid just looking my way. It's funny how I'm dying inside, and you're totally okay. It's funny how you already found someone new, it's funny that I will never get over you. It's funny how cruel you can be, but the funniest part of all is how none of this is funny to me..

June 15, 2011.

Hey!

What a beautiful day!?!? Today after got a bunch of duit taruhan setelah FCB menang gue memutuskan untuk bersemedi di depan layar laptop. Karena, after that incident gue memutuskan untuk have a relationship with my laptop. *ciein dulu sampe tumpeh tumpeh* yeay!

Di post ini gue engga akan membahas tentang gue putus ya sudah lah lupakan, lagian itu sudah terjadi berabad-abad yang lalu. Uhm, mungkin kalian bakal menganggap kalo gue ini manusia purba yang keren. Karena.. There's no makhluk purba yang as cool as me. Yasudah lah gue pun tidak berniat untuk membuka kartu tentang sekeren apakah gue ini atau setangguh apakah cowo cewe yang baru putus ini. Okay, lupakan.

Ohya, talk about FCB bulan ini Puyol harus menjalani operasi lutut karena cedera. May God always bless my papa's partner. Uhm, Jersey for new season ain't bad also. Tapi, to be honest gue bosen liatnya. *oke sekarang kita sedang membicarakan jersey sebuah club nad. Not about what fashion trends are in*. Sip! Sekarang tentang duit taruhan. Untuk penutup season, 200rb sangatlah lumayan untuk 2x match hahahaha yang penting duit gue menebal lagi!!!

Randomly, gue pengen berbagi curhatan dan isi hati gue. Sebagai anak asrama yang tinggal jauh dari emak-babeh gue merasa bangga sekaligus terharu cap kaki badak kalo orang bilang 'wah kamu udah mandiri ya' dan rasanya gue pengen langsung bilang 'HI HI HI TQ' dengan imutnya. Dan menambahkan sedikit gurauan seperti 'LO GAK TAU AJA GIMANA BERATNYA HIDUP INI TANPA CINTA' dengan sebanyak-banyaknya. Oke gue ngaco. Karena, sekarang gue udah ngantuk tingkat dewa.

Ngantuk tingkat dewa itu semacam lo pengen tidur dengan para dewa-dewa(?) atau lo pengen tidur dengan vokalis dewa19(?). Tuhkan terbukti, orang se-ekhem-keren gue aja kalo ngantuk pasti kaconya level major. So, ya wajar aja kalo lo atau cowok lo yang engga sekeren gue bakal teler kalo ngantuk. Sip makin ngaco.

Pokoknya, intinya, gue-gak-akan-lagi-menggalaui-dia. Kecuali kepepet . Udah, yang penting itu gue keren dan gue akan tidur keren juga sekarang. Good night!


Xoxo, nadys.

Goodbyes are hard.

it may be harder for the person leaving,

but it's always hardest for the one left behind.

Today when you walked by and didn’t even bare to look at me, I felt my heart break. You don’t know how much it hurts to see the person you care about walk right past you like you’re not even there :(

He saw you. He wanted you. He liked you. He got you. He had you. He loved you. He got bored. He left :-(